Disappointment. It is one of those soft feelings—it’s not sharp, nor does it have hard corners like fear. But it is one of those vibes that lies in the background on the sofa. It’s not loud, but you still feel it. It hangs out there quietly. It comes alive again when you have a similar disappointing encounter. And you feel that pin-prick to not fully trust as you would like.
It affects a person by giving them the unwanted gift of hesitation. You can’t return that gift—it stays with you like mini-guards over your relationships in life. Whether it arose from someone you knew as an acquaintance, someone you cared for or loved, a family member, colleague, friend, or the barista that didn’t make the mocha as you expected it to taste. You experienced a let down from your unconscious expectation, and this is where fear raises its ugly head.
We all would love to live without those bolder emotions such as fear. For fear can consume and hover, and give us pause when we desire to have an open heart and mind. We do our best to ignore those unwelcoming emotions. We push forward and attempt to continue along the road and not stay ‘safe’, locked in one spot with a bruised heart.
Joe will go down that road again and maybe he’ll end up dancing.